dear N

i don’t know why, but my feelings keep getting stronger and stronger towards you. and when you wore those glasses you became waaay way more attractive than usual. such boyfriend material. i keep praying about you but I know we have to make the timing right, if it’s too soon we could ruin everything. but please do know that the more time I spend with you, the more I realize how much more time I want to spend with you in the future.

i think, even our friends can see it. nlm said she thought we were together (implicitly by saying she thought one of the six of us were together), pgdm said “tuh sm dia” referring to you when I said being single by 30 is the scariest thing I’m afraid of. and when ddy said that in front of all our friends, all i could do was laugh. but it was an Aamiin paling serius

i’ve dropped multiple handkerchiefs towards you, I hope you see it too, I hope all along, you were just trying to improve yourself before being with me. Cause that’s what I’m doing too. I’ve realized I want to be with you cause everytime I’m with you I feel safe and calm and sincere. You always come up with conversations that is so Us, like the new album, what we’ve been binge watching, stuffs like that. you know you know me and i know you too. everytime we talk about those stuff only makes me realize we have the same interest and we’re perfect for each other! lol. please know that I value you more as a friend and I hope to end up with you cause I know I would be my happiest, spending the rest of my life with you.

this sounds sooooo cheesy i think i’m drunk. but my mind was so drunk i mentioned your name in my prayers multiple times. i hope you feel the same way too.